I had been playing the game several hours a day leveling up and once I reached level 15 a fierceness to level up seemed to overtake me. I began thinking about WoW when I went to bed, moved through my dreams like my character did in the game and woke up thinking about the game. Every night I quickly finished readings and chores to return to the game and level up. I worked with zest and zeal and finally reached level 20 Warlock status! To my surprise I have yet to return to the game.
I began pondering where the passion went to; why I was not interested in leveling up. As I was thinking my husband asked if I wanted to go for a “leaf peeping” drive. I asked him where to and he responded, “we’ll just drive”. My immediate thought was, I don’t just want to drive, where we are going, what is the destination. Then it clicked- I’m a goal oriented person!
I never realized that I like to have a destination and achieve the destination, I like a project and to complete the project, etc. In Wow, leveling up did not give me a great sense of joy or accomplishment. I worked to get to level 20 because that was my goal. Once I achieved this, I felt completed and walked away.
I’ve decided, for curiosity sake, to return to the game and see what I feel now that an outside goal is not in my mind…